Amber - The Reasons for Change

This will have nothing to do with Bikram. I haven't been in 5 days and I feel terrible about it. I could make excuses, but that's just what they are - an excuse.

I find that I have to constantly remind myself WHY I'm making the changes. I know that my friends often forget, too. I did not quit drinking to be anti-social and I don't mind going out and not drinking. I quit drinking because I have a fatty liver. As I explained in an earlier blog, a fatty liver has two main causes, drinking and obesity. Well, I can't fix being obese overnight, but I can abstain from drinking. Now, having a fatty liver will not kill you. A fatty liver is reversible. If you had a fatty liver, why wouldn't you do what you could to fix it? I think it would be irresponsible to care so little for yourself to not change the things you can. A fatty liver can lead to cirrhosis. For those that don't know what that is - it is scar tissue build up in the liver. This CAN NOT be reversed. As it progresses, the only cure is transplant. Getting a transplant is something people wait YEARS for and some never see the day.

I go back to my original point, I have to fix the things I can control. It is far from nice to hear how I am not any fun anymore. Why not go out and do things that aren't sitting in a bar? Bowling, Put-Put, Dinner, Movies, etc... I quit drinking to continue living.

I talked about Kiki, my friend's sister, battling Leukemia. I have posted a link to her blog which you will see just to the right. She is back in the hospital undergoing another round of chemo. This is something that she has, through no fault of her own. Cancer does not discriminate - so please keep her in your prayers.

Sunday, I plan to do a DC tour - meaning walk around and check out the museums and such. When was the last time you went on a field trip? Want to come with me?

The infamous AA prayer as it's now coined is so appropriate for this... I wear it around my neck and have for the past 6 years. It is a reminder of how to approach a day, a week, a month, a moment...

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

The courage to change the things I can,

And the wisdom to know the difference

AMEN