Amber - To Pee or Not to Pee - PART 2

Yesterday was my 3 month anniversary. As I wrote about yesterday, it is important to challenge yourself and try something new. So, I had to pee... again. I thought I was doing well. I went at 2:30 pm. I went again at 5:00 pm. I'm in the 6 pm class, and I make it through the standing series. We lay down and all of a sudden it hits again. I think that I can make it like I did before. We roll over. I pretty much did nothing because it was just pressure. Finally I decide I can't take it any more and stand up to leave. I have decided that Reggie must read this blog because he instantly said to me... "Are you leaving MY class?" It's like he knew that it really bothered me to leave and wanted to just challenge me one more time to make sure I was making the right decision. I left. I came back in a moment later. I only missed one asana, but I felt like I was walking into the class for the first time at the half-tortoise. I was so disoriented. I can now advise firmly against leaving... even if you have to pee.

On another note, yesterday was great. Previously, I didn't appreciate Reggie's teaching style. I realized that I didn't appreciate him because he doesn't let me be lazy. He guided me through the triangle pose so I went deeper and stronger. When I got out of it, I had a sense of real accomplishment. It is amazing how our bodies work. Just when I think I have done all I can do, I went further. I did more. Sometimes we need someone to encourage us to do what we are capable of. At first you may get angry... but at the end you realize how great they really are.

Just as a small example, I will never forget the day my parents wanted me to go to Lurray Caverns with them. I was 15 or 16 years old. I had other plans in mind that day. I believe I had a boyfriend or someone else that I wanted to spend my day with. So I through a temper tantrum just like any other 15 year old girl would do. I crossed my arms and pouted that day. I was absolutely not interested in anything. I can stand here as a nearly 30 year old and tell you that I saw some of the most beautiful things that day. In my stubborn way I have never thanked my parents.

Just remember that people don't push you to do something because they want to be mean. They do it because they see something inside you that tells them you deserve more and can do more. My parents knew that I would appreciate what I saw that day. Reggie knows that I can do more in my practice than my mind thinks it can. In my stubborn way... this is my thanks.